Not yet sunset

It's not yet sunset and I've found myself traveling backwards lately. Maybe it's necessary to really be able to focus on what's to come. It seems I have left these places behind me but have kept them in the palm of my hand so my arm is flailing behind me hoping to regrasp what it is that made me so incredibly happy during those times. I've figured out what element is always present in my happiness and it's not money or the stuff or the place- it's the people. I've always been one to form bonds with people pretty easily. I'm thankful that the few places I've gone in my life so far have left me with amazing memories, but is that enough to live on? I graduated this past May from New Paltz where I found a family that I absolutely adore and they came to me in every form possible- some poets, some preachers, some badasses, some incredibly sweet but all very true to who they are and there need for human contact. Not too long ago I took a trip through the area I used to go to school.. my first college.. my little highschool that was small enough to never get lost and big enough to hold my heart. The people I met there will forever be kept and I wonder how it all happened. A few classes here and there, lunch outside next to the sack circle, takin rides with phenomenal people to the falls listenin to Biggie and Sublime and just enjoying eachothers company. And it's funny how much you realize the impact when those elements are taken away. And it's sad to think that it takes losing someone you love to really want to be able to tell everyone how much they mean to you... I'm sure if you mean anything to me you've felt it, but maybe not... maybe I should just take the time out to make those phonecalls that go undialed, to really try and keep those connections that have gone out of service?? Who knows... maybe it's all just because I went back to New Paltz a saw a few people I used to be close with, definitely didn't see all of them but those I shared a few breaths with, a few laughs.. well it made me realize a few things. So I guess what I'm trying to say is... if you're surrounded by people who make you feel your true worth, hold onto them because there are people just waiting to demean you and make you feel worthless. It's not about the number of breaths you take- it's about the moments that take your breath away and those people who leave you breathless.