Birthday Candles

I've never been more alone than I feel right now
tossing pennies into arrid wells hoping for change
pulling eyelashes from lids to inspire movement
making birthdays last for months
so there are more moments to make wishes
and sometimes when the moon is still enough
I whisper prayers into silence
so something floats like thick fog to the heavens
and I am not even religious
just hopeful in that someone will hear me now
not later because in two breaths I could be gone
and my heart is growing weaker
with every beat left wraveled
every road untraveled
every song unsung like heros sons
wearing purple hearts of their travels
I just want to hold you
want to make wishes of forever with you
want nothing more than to break promises together
because our words are not always as strong as our hearts
want to pull apart distance and make you closer
tying ships to ports parting seas of past mistakes and transgressions
I want your impression to be painted into skylines
so I see you in my horizon
the sun could warm you when Im not there
and our sons and daughters with futures bright
and we will teach them to hold their breath through tunnels
dig roots deep until they are steady
like pasts that aren't ready to teach us yet
leaving mysteries to unveil when we are stronger
more able to love beyond the brick buildings we were born in
cold stones holding us back from exploding
because allowing us to love fully and without reserve
could end the world in its glory
causing clouds to break,
the sun to rip open and pour out the breath its been holding,
the tide would rise to cover earth with nurturing
and it would all be too much
so we chain butterflies to bumblebees
so the beauty is stifled before it grows
lord knows we can't allow it to be
to bloom like the flowers you make wishes on
and all I was wishing for was someone to compliment me
balancing my unsteady stride with a monogamous march
maticulously mastering my matter
and facts no longer matter
its the simply in your speech
from your heart beat to my ear drum
we make melodies of the unsung heros of heartwars
battling broken bones with kisses
broken dreams with wishes allowing us to be whole again
I want nothing more than to love you more than Id like to
so deep that when its over I'm no longer whole
not worth fixing up and moving on..
destroyed by what you've meant to me
want to feel it in the toes that will walk worlds with you
the fingers that will hold small hands with you
I want to feel you so strong that it's as though you were always there
etched into memories to make moments complete
and I have yet to meet you
but when it happens
the sun will start breathing again
and the moon would soon explode